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10 things about me:

1. The day I die, I want to be able to say I learned a little bit more about myself for every day I lived.
2. Although I have been to more countries than I can count on two hands, I do not really enjoy traveling. At all.
3. Currently I am an engineer, but am seriously considering becoming a psychologist once I have myself more figured out -- probably in a few decades.
4. I cannot for the life of me judge heights of people. My mind automatically makes everyone the same size as me when I think of them, regardless of whether they are taller or shorter than me.
5. My current goal is to learn how to have faith. In anything. I have never been able to feel that things could turn out okay, that people have good intentions, that life does not require constant management, vigilance, and control in order for anything to work out well. I have recently discovered that things in my life often go wrong BECAUSE OF constant management, vigilance, and control.
6. I have folded over 1500 paper cranes in my lifetime, 500 of which were done in three days. So far, still no gods to grant my wishes.
7. One of the hardest things to accept is that my capacity to learn and experience things in my lifetime is limited BY my lifetime. If I was immortal, I would make it my goal to become a true "Renaissance Man (Woman?)" and know a significant chunk of everything the world had to offer - Languages, philosophies, musical instruments, sciences, mathematical theories, literature, and the arts. To name a few. I'd also try to live everywhere for at least a year. Since I'm not immortal, this will never happen. Which is sad, but I suppose accepting that is a necessary part of being human. Damn it.
8. I don't so much fear death as I fear being unable to complete all the projects I have. If I ever was to die, the thing that would matter to me the most is that somebody who was close to my work would at least try to explain how everything I had planned was to end.
9. I have had numerous and violent "day-mares" since I was a child. They can be sparked by anything, or happen spontaneously. They are vivid and include sensory detail. They can happen when I'm sitting, walking, working, driving, and so forth. Nobody I dared to ask seemed to experience similar things, so eventually out of an intense need to explain these things I convinced myself that I was somehow being prepared for some great disaster, so that when it came I would not be afraid. Since then, I have met other people with similar day-mare experiences, and have determined that these were manifestations of inner problems connected to a difficult family environment. The more I have worked with these issues externally, the less and less frequent these day-mares have become. Now when they occur, I know they're a signal that there is something I've repressed that needs to be addressed, and as such they have become more of a tool for self-examination.

But, if the world ends, you know who to call.

And it isn't the $#(*$*@&$ Ghostbusters.

10. My secret wish would be to one day star as Elphaba in Wicked in a local production. I would also settle for Glinda, as I can sing either part. I sincerely doubt this will ever happen, but it's the one pipe dream I allow myself to entertain.

And after that series of incoherent ramblings, I supposed to tag 10 other artists on DA...*sigh* Work, work, work.










Oh gee, will you look at that. I ran all out of Givingadamn. That's 10, right? Right.