Page 153 - Not Good enough

This is posted on my main Shades of Grey website, of course, but it is a very personal page for me and I wanted to share it with the DA community as well.

Writing this page and the pages before it was...tumultuous. I had been in a writer's block and artist's block for months, slowly eating through the buffer I had built up. Then one day, at work, something happened. A few days before, a coworker lent me "The Speed of Light" by Alex Shein. As I listened to it, I kept starting to cry. I didn't have any idea why, but with it came the urge to write and draw. For most of the morning I tried to ignore it, but finally I just decided to take some vacation time and go home. So I did. I packed up, went home, put on the same music, and started to draw and cry. It felt like a big, black bubble of poisoned oil and tar had been welling up in me, and suddenly in that moment it burst. I just drew and drew with tears running down my face for no reason, needing no reason, until I didn't need to anymore. All things told, I blazed through many pages in only a few hours, starting with page 149 and ending here. It was an intense, exhausting, and difficult experience, but in a way it was also a very beautiful experience.

SoG and all its characters and work (c) me